All along myself I was wandering and landed up into a state of undiscovered world, where I found people just performing the part of socialization, I remember suddenly what Marx said, “isolation is also a part of socialization”, keeping the view in mind I asked people out there on my laptop screen with a blue name to share the process of thoughts which encounters the reason for which I and may be they signed in too. Sitting all day along the screen made me realize the importance of an unknown name in my profile of friend list, I kept on searching and asking people to communicate and tried to develop a lasting bond with just those email-ids. Many at times names speak out and my friend list was up with requests, somewhere down the line sitting whole day I gathered the courage to sight a view of liberal ideological lust which was a profound factor working in those rooms. The best part was that you can skip them all with just starting your chat box by mentioning “decent chat, please!!”. Wondering factor was that many at times there were no replies and which made me inclined and anxious to try the phase of what actually was unseen and unpredictable, ‘s*x chat’. With the courage of being a man and active hormones never just helped me to develop the attire of chat box with lust.
Once for all it was never meant to be, being human and instinct to overcome the factor of loneliness I just stepped out of the reading room of that red library which was all my support factor to be consistently allowing me in for hours, I entered the phase with a natural instinct to overcome, started with the factor of s*x chat. It was on a real base quite difficult as a beginner but, you never need to learn it is the best of part of it. You just walk along with those email-ids and just need to send them a video call request which itself is a justification of what you are wanting the opposite to reciprocate, still I wonder that how is it possible to chat with an unknown and with just a name, certainty exists though justifying it as lameness. You can never imagine the very factor of Indian women being introvert or just surrounded by kitchen walls, they are developing and I m astonished the way they ask you earlier then you to just get nude.
Irony of all is nothing what is justified above rather the product of guilt which encounters me in my thoughts of cheating over with an unknown love identity, the feeling is at times to the saturation but, all is unavoidable. You cannot just step out of all just to prove yourself a preacher of geeta and becoming an immortal human with no lust factor. Sudden of all I tried to face my mirrored image and questioned what was actually happening along? Reply came with a single utterance of silent breeze and I understood it was more or less my feeble and weak lonely soul which prompts me to decide the above decisions without a thought that ending up will just make me sleep peacefully.
The whole conclusion at times makes me dicey of what actually I want and what actually happened, the realization was all uncertain guilt but all after I was wet. I may not be exaggerating the phenomenon but, yes I m plotting down my confession to whom it may matter. Still I m signed in and still I m surrounded by the silent breeze. People here are still unknown but, yes it’s a bond rather an undefined version of socialization which has never been uprooted from any theory. Though I can rely upon Sigmund Freud’s theory at one corner of time but, rather I would like to place myself under what I rule myself- the self realization.
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