ehsaas...........

As usual the need arose to meet my psychologist as I was feeling uneasiness. We left our place and reached the place; first we met the psychiatrist and were waiting in the garden for the time to arrive of the appointment with psychologist. I have been in love with my hospital as everything was certain there for me.

As I was sitting in the garden under the tree shed(the tree who had been my best pal ever since) the “idly” plate was in my hands and suddenly my eyes glued at a girl in the opposite park lying down on the bed of grass, she must be of nearly 19-20 years of age and her father was sitting next to her and was as if like he was consoling her to not to be afraid the world is not finished it will start once again just and only for you. Something in me insisted me to go and talk to her but I just don’t know what was stopping, I didn’t saw her face at all but still it was infatuating me a lot. Something from inside me was showing me my picture of the same time period when I was here and enjoy the flower beds same way, just the difference was that it was summers in my time and now it was winters.

Doesn’t it sounds strange the season changes, comes and go but every season a new character, a new personality is seen here. We only see one or two but there are millions like we, her and all of us. The gal was showing a strange looks, but something attracted me towards her, it was like she was asking herself at every moment that why are we having a rule in this world that some of us have to be different from others? are we unique or weird? What defines us?

As I climb the fourth floor of my building I find everything very small from here, as if it is like I am the king and all have to work for me for my happiness, my wishes certainly I felt that god would also think the same way he could do any of the changes in any structure while creating humans. His incompetence makes we people to suffer.

Nobody no one tries to talk to us, be friends with us, tries to understand our wishes, anything is nothing for us. That gal till now strikes in my mind today it has been four days past but I cannot forget her. As if she was giving me a way of living, asking me to go and bring her happiness for her, she is revealing me a lot even I wanted to go and share a life with her and cherish moments with her but don’t know what stopped my feet to go in that  direction……………

I wish I could have gone to her and once just once asked her “hey want to be my friend?” hope this would have led to a new beginning of success for her or me or ………………..??????